Was
it long time before? or was it recent? I don't remember exact time of it, but
it was actually painful memory also time to recover what i own. My memory, my
mind, my all. I don't exactly knew what happen but that person word really wake
me up. It's just like the song lyric of one of my favorite band, wake me up
when september ends. I think i know why i really attached to that song. Almost
every wake up time of my mess situation happen in that time, September
ends.
I called that time is "struggle moment". No, not me that suggest that title. A person who really i admire and proud named it. I just followed after him. Why 'it' called like that? It is because every moment in that phase is wasting by hurt, cry, and realize and then stand again. Or hurt, broken, sink at sadness and die or stay alive with remaining faith and ability. Oh yeah, it's not much, but that word seem right to me. Like all people said, i don't know world, yet i being 'too much know' about it. I just said i 'feel' not i 'know'. Why judge me? i don't involve in your live, i don't want to try to involve in your life, then again, you being sarcastic and judge that i try. Just mind your business, not everyone live like you. When you don't know what happen, don't easily talk about you understand and judge that people live. Do you even know that she/he struggle too much??
Then, today..after all silent time. I would like to talk what i feel. I like it when i don't need to owe something. What i did for other is my will, when you against it..do you ever think what will people think? non sense, you say. Then, what did you do when i need a hand? avoiding? losing from my sight? that much more low than i do. Why avoiding? afraid to involve in my life? then just do so. That's why people always say 'i'm not good in making friends..i'm worst in frienship', because it is always i being left alone in the end. No, i'm not that sad. Because i know i can struggle. I can pretend 'm not there. I could only struggle.
I called that time is "struggle moment". No, not me that suggest that title. A person who really i admire and proud named it. I just followed after him. Why 'it' called like that? It is because every moment in that phase is wasting by hurt, cry, and realize and then stand again. Or hurt, broken, sink at sadness and die or stay alive with remaining faith and ability. Oh yeah, it's not much, but that word seem right to me. Like all people said, i don't know world, yet i being 'too much know' about it. I just said i 'feel' not i 'know'. Why judge me? i don't involve in your live, i don't want to try to involve in your life, then again, you being sarcastic and judge that i try. Just mind your business, not everyone live like you. When you don't know what happen, don't easily talk about you understand and judge that people live. Do you even know that she/he struggle too much??
Then, today..after all silent time. I would like to talk what i feel. I like it when i don't need to owe something. What i did for other is my will, when you against it..do you ever think what will people think? non sense, you say. Then, what did you do when i need a hand? avoiding? losing from my sight? that much more low than i do. Why avoiding? afraid to involve in my life? then just do so. That's why people always say 'i'm not good in making friends..i'm worst in frienship', because it is always i being left alone in the end. No, i'm not that sad. Because i know i can struggle. I can pretend 'm not there. I could only struggle.
