Where's The Equivalent?

Just now, I do something ridiculous (that's what i think). I just feel that way because i once again let my precious friend down in the state of they couldn't get it right. And because of that, i drown again myself in book. At one hour, i already finish a bunch of book. At this rate, i'll be back to be book craze, unsocialized and unapproachable. Humm..then let's think positively, i 'eat' that much topic in one day which i really love. But now, why regret? Because its influence me in many way. The best part for it is i could forget everything and sink in every word that i read. Maybe 'they' right, i just a weird girl who don't know 'nice' world, still too naive and whatever they say. And i want to tell a story that i read a moment ago. It's about nice daughter and student who build in every emotion she have, and at the end she just crush every good thing in her life because she got to know the world. The good thing i can learn from the story is just freely express yourself, but of course with attitude. Just imagining it, i feel really pity that a good and nice girl turn wild and develop two face personalities. Even her love to her family vanish because of it. Hold in emotion is no good at all, but express it too much also will bring a great shock if you not used to be it. 

Then, the second story is taken from manga i read. The content is interesting, the story flow really good and the process is not boring. The lesson i can take from it is uncountable. What meaning of love..then how you control your feeling...also how to take care of people who we love..There's many i can learn about. But how come the series i 'eat' in the first wake time?? Is my mind going crazy by reading? Nope, i used to be like that. Even weird nickname given for me because of that. I'm okay with it. It just i don't read too many book in long period before this week. Then i remember something hurting because my old hobby. Why just me 'they' treat normal doesn't like others when many of my love-book friend always being treat like weird. But that's okay, because i already used to be called weird and so on. It's okay to express and tell them what i know from reading, but it will be bothersome if i answer all their question. Then, the reason i won't speak is because i already feel uncomfortable feeling to that. Then let say that i'm not normal at all. It's Okay with me. Then just treat me like 'you' treat other bookworm. You never know when you need friend, so why bother you so much to treat someone differently?